So what does one do when the following is true:
1) I don't like to interact much on social media &
2) I don't like to interact much with people in general &
3) We don't really like to tell too much of our business &
4) We really really want to be able to maybe motivate the next person to take the big leap
and live smaller and leave the rat race OR
5) We really really want to show what we're doing as a lesson on what to do (if it works)
or what not to do (if it doesn't work - like our latest wood stove installment project, for
example - that's a whole 'nother post, though) ?
Is there an answer for this, really? I've decided, maybe if only for the sake of my sanity and to shore up my weekly schedule, that yes, there is an answer. And the answer is that I just write and post whenever I want to (somewhat on a schedule), about whatever I want to. Like noodles to a wall, see what sticks. BTW, that is NEVER a good nor accurate way to check for done-ness of noodles of any sort, so please stop doing that. Ok, carry on.
You'd think that as a SERIOUS introvert, I'd love blogging and it'd stick to me like water to a duck. I mean, it's a solitary activity that requires the peace and quiet that I don't only CRAVE, but physically and emotionally NEED in order to feel myself. And it's not like I don't have interesting content. Shit, our WHOLE LIVES out here is interesting to a good number of folx. Still, each time I drive down that 6 miles of dirt road to get to the 4 miles of paved road that takes us to what others call 'civilization' (i.e., Wal-Mart), all the seemingly cool things that I think would make a seemingly cool post seem to to dwindle by the time I get back to our dusty rural slice of heaven that one former roommate recently called 'a nice little dirt patch'. When I get back here, or rather, when WE get back here, we peel off our physical clothes and change into our most comfortable selves, physically and emotionally. We take off the clothes that we wear out in 'the world' and put on our flip flops and clothes that can and quickly will, get dusty and dirty. We switch from automaton mode to the mindful mode that is absolutely a requisite of successful off-grid tiny living.
Everything we do requires our full attention and everything we do requires some sort of prep in advance of the DO-ing, so it's easy to see how and why posting about what we do here is not only an additional chore, but tiresome at the end of a super physical and busy day. I've had to definitely finagle my schedule and carve out time that is dedicated to updating the blog after updating all our online commerce sites. The idea of interacting with folks online is daunting to me, even though outwardly, it would seem that I was rather alright at it. Don't get me wrong. I'm not shy, I don't HATE people, and I don't have social anxiety (though I do sometimes tell people that I do to get out of being invited to social gatherings). It's just that I can only tolerate 2 hours of people-ing per extra person beyond myself, my husband included! I am on a strict 2 to 1 ratio of hours with people to alone. The burnout after interactions is REALLY REALLY REAL. Just listen to the plight of this poor woman like me living in New York. I could completely see this happening to me if we'd stayed too much longer in Baltimore.
So going back to the idea that blogging should really be fine for an extreme introvert like me... Not exactly. The thing is, that I post, then walk away, and then my and our goings-on goes out there into the world and interacts with the folks who read it. Then those same folks want to interact whether in comments, on our IG page (exactly the right amount of interaction for me - snippets that shouldn't be long - no conversations or back & forths forever), or on the phone (I can't stand phone calls, btw, and don't like texting convos either. Let's video chat or meet in person, just us.. for 2 hours and then I turn into an emotional and energetic pumpkin). I feel like a part of me is out there being drained of energy even when I walk away from the computer. But at the same time, O and I really wanted to help others see that if average city folks like ourselves can do this by (somewhat calculated) trial and error, then maybe they could as well. We want to show folx that there are more sustainable ways of living that maybe society says isn't ideal, but that can bring such inner peace and sense of centering. So if something we put out there helps one and that one helps the next and the next and so one, then we're doing what we're supposed to be doing. As for my internal conundrum, I'll figure it out... ON MY OWN (lololololol).